Monday, April 23, 2012

With Gratitude

Thank you everyone for your very kind comments and emails filled with prayers and support.  I really appreciate that.

I wanted to share with you all some of the ways my guides and angels have helped me during this time.  This all started the first week of March. I discovered the lump on a Thursday night and called the doctor at 7:59 am the next morning.  I was worried because it was Friday, and I didn't want to wait the weekend without any answers.  The doctor's receptionist said, "I'm sorry but the doctors are booked all day.  Oh, wait a minute.  We just had a cancellation.  Can you be here in 15 minutes?"  The doctor's office is 15 minutes from my home on a good day, but at 8 am with morning traffic, it normally takes about 25 minutes.  I made it in just under 15 minutes.  I never got one red light.  Not one.

The doctor saw me right away and scheduled an appointment with the radiologist for a mammogram and sonogram.  The earliest they could fit me in was 2 pm.  I walked out of that office at 9 am thinking, "What am I going to do with myself until 2?" I texted my sister who, as a ten year breast cancer survivor, knew exactly what I was feeling.  She texted me back: "I'm leaving work.  Meet me at the radiologist's now."  When we arrived, she said, "Sit down over there.  Let me do all the talking."  I did as I was told.  After talking to the receptionist, she walked over to me beaming from ear to ear.  "They can see you in 15 minutes."  Wow.  And they did.

I had my results by 4 pm.  My surgical biopsy was scheduled for the following Friday.  I was told that I would have the wire mammogram procedure at 10 am and the biopsy at 3 pm. I was disappointed that I'd have to sit in the hospital waiting for five hours.  But when they finished with the wire mammogram at 11, the anesthesiologist walked in and said, "Ready?" I said, "For what?" The nurse explained to me that the woman who was scheduled ahead of me had shown up late, so I was pushed ahead.  I was home by 3:00!

And since then, the help hasn't stopped.  The doctor's nurse called me on my cell with my diagnosis of cancer just as I was driving past my parents' neighborhood because my normal road was rerouted due to road work.  I was pretty prepared for the bad news.  My guides had told me it would be scary news, but I'd be fine.  Still, when you hear someone tell you that you have cancer, it's devastating.  It was very comforting to be able to pull into my parents' driveway and have them enfold me in a group hug.  My dad kept saying "We'll get through this Mandolin."  It was a nickname he hadn't used with me since I was a little girl.

The wonderful thing about going through a difficult situation like this when you're spiritual is that you feel a constant support with you.  I have never felt alone through this time.  I can feel my guides and angels with me at all times.

I've also had wonderful dreams with them.  I considered blogging about this situation earlier, and I asked my guide about it.  That night I had a dream that my spirit guide and I were looking at a graph chart on a table.  There were two graphs that were identical except in color.  One was pink and the other was grey.  My guide pointed to the pink one and said, "These are the people who will send you positive prayer." Then he pointed to the grey chart and said, "These are all the people who will send you fearful prayers. Wait to share this information until the positive outweighs the fear."

And so I did.

I've had several dreams where my guide told me I would be fine, that it would be scary for me.  I would have two procedures and then I would be fine.

My mother-in-law came to me in a dream and said, "This is nothing.  It means nothing. You're going to be fine."

These experiences and dreams are so comforting to me.   I hope that if any of you are going through a scary or difficult experience, that you can feel and recognize the support of your angels and guides.  If you can't, please trust that they are there helping you in big and small ways.  Ask to feel their support, ask to have some confirmation that they're with you.  And open your heart to feeling their calming presence with you.

I hope you all have a great start to your week!


  1. You are so amazing Samantha. Beams of white light your way. Care Bear Stare!


  2. Hi Samantha it's JP Guarino Deb Bowens friend. During my reading we spoke about my very unique experience with my cancer. If you would like to talk more and if I may share some of what I learned please do not hesitate to email me.

  3. Oh no, I am just catching up on reading blogs & read about all you are dealing with! I'm so sorry you are going through this. So glad you have great support & positive outlook. You and your family are in my thoughts. Hoping things go smoother than you could imagine & before you know it you will move past this into happy, more comfortable days.

    May a white & soft pink healing light surround you all.

  4. Hi Samantha, I've been listening to your podcast for ages (love it) and recently learned you have breast cancer. I just want you to know you are in my prayers. I am thinking of you and your family at this time. Heaps of hugs from Sydney, Australia xxx