I've been sick for the past week with strep throat and a double ear infection. Not fun. But the bed rest forced me to face some harsh realities about myself. I'm not exactly a workaholic. Hardly. What I am is a compulsive multi-tasker. I have a really hard time just sitting and doing nothing. One thing being a medium has taught me is that life is precious. Time is fleeting. So I loathe wasting time. When I talk on the phone, I clean my house. When I shop at my local grocery store, I listen to audio books on my iPod. When I walk, I meditate. And when I watch TV? Forget it. I'm on the computer or knitting or paying bills or writing to-do lists. And the thinking. My God. I'm always thinking. There are only two times in my day when I'm completely focused just on what I'm doing -- when I'm sitting with clients and when I'm playing with my children.
I feel the weight of time pressing against all I want to accomplish, teach and create almost every day.
But this "lost" week I've just spent recuperating has taught me that maybe life is about more than living each moment to its absolute fullest. Maybe it's about just living it. Savoring the moment for whatever it brings. Maybe the best way to honor time is to just enjoy it.
Thank you Samantha. This is exactly how I feel and I was just discussing this "living every moment to the fullest" syndrome with a friend yesterday. I needed to hear these words. Much Love :) xoxoxo
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